I realize my goal to get more fit has come with some deeper insights into the negative thought processes of my mind. I wrote about some of this in yesterday’s blog. With the help of the words spoken to me from a young age, and my brain allowing myself to believe those words and replay them in my mind… there is just one phrase that pops into my head:
“You don’t deserve this!”
I don’t feel like I deserve success, and every time I make progress with becoming fitter, gaining muscle, losing excess weight there is a voice that says
“Don’t be silly, you don’t deserve to Achieve your goals”.
I had heard it said that people can have a fear of success.., and I would think
Everyone wants success, I don’t know who would be scared to succeed?
However, the negative thoughts in my head are a type of fear, and it is certainly a fear of success. I just was unaware that those words were exactly that – a fear.
Now that I am aware of that fear I am consciously embracing the fear and working on overcoming it.
The majority of what stops us from achieving our goals is fear… but in order for us to overcome it must first be recognized. Have you identified what fear is stopping you?
Well, I have hit reality today that I am suffering from my yearly struggle with the weather (here in Australia) turning from Spring into Summer. To be honest I REALLY don’t do well with the weather change. I’ll be fine when the heat evens out but right now it goes from rain to hot as hell and then cold rain again. My body just doesn’t adjust to such inconsistency.
However I am on a “getting fit” kick and I was frustrated with my health setback. I remembered that even though I was in extreme pain, that my doctor told me that for Continue reading “What I can control…”→
I had a really rough night sleep with a lot of stress on my shoulders. I usually feel like I can fake it but as I was waiting to pick up my child from school I took a selfie – I couldn’t believe how much my face sagged and my eyes drooped. There was no way of faking it today. So I decided to use a filter and send this picture to my friends in the hopes it would make them laugh. It worked… and I made them laugh which gave me a small amount of joy today.
Sometimes we need filters in real life. We desire to spread love and joy but have nothing left in us to give to others. Wouldn’t it be lovely to just have a real life filter?… well – apparently with this filter I still look my worst, so maybe I just need to choose a better filter next time.
Hope your week has more energy than mine.
So, Lately I’ve been writing blogs and then deleting them. I don’t feel right, and I don’t feel genuine about my work. It just doesn’t feel good to publish. Which is a weird thing for me, I love publishing my work, I love just writing, even if no one reads it. It’s soothing to me to write everything on my mind.
However, lately I have been kept awake at night, my mind racing with words as I have not written them out or even found a way I feel comfortable with expressing them at the moment.
I usually can think of 2-5 different blogs in one day, but lately if I think of anything I become seriously in doubt with myself. I have been silent on here a while – not wanting to write a mediocre blog – and yet when I publish – within minutes to hours of publishing I press the trash button as I have convinced myself that what I have written is stupid.
I don’t like feeling this way, but I am sure most of the actual readers (not the spambots) will relate and I just wanted to be honest with my readers.
Please share in the comments section if you have any thoughts on how you deal with writers block and ways you have gotten yourself out of it.